You Have Arrived My Angel

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Well guys it's been like forever since I wrote anything...Lack of inspiration I suppose. Even right now I have no idea what to say...Seriously I'm staring out the window thinking I should write something...
Not much has been going on lately. My family is doing well and I'm doing ok for the most part. My best friend is getting married the 8th of August. I'm excited for her. So I've been busy helping her where I can. I'm standing up in the wedding and I have everything I need besides shoes...Hopefully I get them soon or I'll just go barefoot...It would be a lot easier for me that way. Anyway I hope it all goes well.
I've been under a lot of stress lately...I blame it on my worrying way too much and a couple people in my life. I still don't have a job and the lack of funds to do much of anything is bugging me. I've looked out there and there's nothing to find job wise. Unless I want to strip or hook...which that's not my cup of tea. I've been offered to do a Massage Party for my fellow bridesmaids which I've agreed to. (I'm a certified Massage Therapist who can't find work...) I've even offered my fellow bridesmaids discounted prices. (Instead of $1 per minute it will be $.50 per minute.) You would think in these stressful times someone will want a massage...Geez, I need one...and if I had the money I would get one...I guess Massages are luxzuries that people don't want to pay for. So we'll see how that party goes.
Another thing about the wedding...I don't care for one of the bridesmaids. She's rude and disrespectful to everyone even the bride's mother. This isn't how a person of our age should act. She should be grateful that she was even picked to be in the wedding and yes I'm truly grateful that I was. The thing that truly pisses me off about it is that no one calls her out on it. I guess it will have to be me. I will knock a bitch out! I don't care where it is I will do it. I won't do it at the wedding because it's the bride's day and I don't want to be the one who ruined it for her. I don't like her at all. To my knowledge no one likes her besides my best friend, the bride. Between the bridal shower and the batchlorette party, which were the same day, the rude bridesmaid basically said to me and another bridesmaid that all the other gifts, besides her own, were worthless. This pissed me off to no end at that I sighed and walked out of the house shaking my head feeling as "worthless" as my gift was. I didn't have much money to go and buy the bride things she would only use once or twice. I got her stuff that I could afford and that she would use on a day to day basis. The bride said she loved what I got her so I guess that's all that matters. The rude bridesmaid got her lingerie and some other stuff. This is just one of the things that has pissed me off about this girl...and I say girl because that's all she is. She has no sense of decency about her. She's pushy and way too bossy for her own good. I believe she likes to hear herself talk and she makes her problems seem like the worst problems in the world. She's self-centered and doesn't care about anyone besides herself. This is the bride's time to shine! My theory and everyone elses is that since she ran off to Vegas to get married she's regretting it and is planning her wedding but with a different bride. It's horrible.
I just hope for the bride's sake that everything is how she wants it to be. I love her with all my heart and she's my best friend! She means the world to me! I want her to be happy and all I have ever wanted for her is to be happy. If it makes her happy I'd gladly step aside and let someone else take my spot in her life and let my feelings and concerns be pushed down and bottled up for another time. I've already talked to her about it and it seems to me that this issue doesn't matter. My wish is that it did matter. But I don't want to start any drama at all for her. God knows she doesn't need anymore drama. So I will leave it at that and maybe one day we'll talk about this and other things at length and maybe, just maybe, it will matter.

Well guys I guess I really had something to say...Till next time guys I hope all is well with you!